My life is here and now

Hello Anonymous and not-so anonymous readers!

I have not updated this blog in a looong while, so I think it’s about time you guys got a regular update from now on! (which I keep saying but not doing, T.T curses myself!)

Okay in my life so far…

School is almost over, I have all A’s and a B (basically)
And today is prom! (Yes, I am only a sophomore but I am going with a friend to prom who is a junior :P)
I love dancing, I think I am pretty good at it too, and it is a passion of mine.
Given the chance I will dance for hours upon end, but the style of my dancing may have you confused by the end of those many hours.
For instance, I like to dance high velocity rapidly and non-stop.
This expends a ton of energy, akin to an uber intense running work-out, and by the end of the dance I will begin to look a bit like a drunkerd.
I will be pulling out some cool moves but will also be kinda swaggering around and dropping up and down with the flow as if I were dizzy and revolving to the music.
This is because my muscles become extremely exhausted after hours of non-stop dancing, except for a little break here and there for water and oxygen.
Actually, I always get blisters all over my feet from dancing, and at a recent dance at the end of the dance my leg muscles cramped/charlie horsed and I had to sit down and stretch them. :}
Now, you may say that I am a crazy dancer, but I say that I am a crazy dancer who is good at dancing and enjoys it. I can assure you that I have the most fun out of everyone there due to my high intensity philosophy.
You just have to ride the waves of sound and match your body to the ebb and flow of the music. It’s a very emotional thing too, your whole being needs to aline itself with the music and you sometimes need to be able to predict what will happen next.
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Well besides that, it is obvious that I am too shy and reserved in my daily life.
I enjoy socializing with people, but I find that many of their conversations do not prompt any sort of input from me. Or, in other words, I can not think of anything to contribute to their conversations. Whether or not this is due to the lack of interesting topic material, or because I do not know what they will accept or reject as input from me, I do not know.
However, I do know that I need to find my group of people and hang with them. I need to find a group of crazy people, radicals yes, that are both kind and intelligent. People who are interesting in self-improvement and improving everything else as well.
People who love math, english, history, science, language, physical exercise, and challenges. People that push their limits and help others do the same.
People that care about each other and people that protect one another.
This may sound utopian, but it is possible to form a group like this.
The only problem is that all of these traits stem from their own personality and from their experiences with their own families, and if their families did not love them or raise them properly (and in some cases even if they did) they may not be able to have all of these criterion. This criteria may be too specific and I may be hindering the growth of those who would like to join the group.
Therefore, the only requirement to join the group would have to be a deep desire, or just a wonton, to grow as a person and change oneself.
Because we cannot help you if you do not want to help yourself.
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On a side note, I’ve been thinking about inverse trigonometric functions and it seems to me that applying restrictions is somewhat bothersome. It bothers me that the way we have to deal with them is as restricted graphs, when I believe their full beauty should be expressed.
Let me say this,
The definition of a function is that for every x value there is exactly one y value. (for every input, one output)
And in order to get the inverse function you swap out the x and y, correct?
Therefore, the definition of an inverse function is different from that of a regular function, rather it is inversed.
An inverse function is a function such that for every Y value there is exactly one X value. (for every output, there is exactly one input)
Which is definitely true.
My teacher says the problem arises when you deal with slope in higher maths, however, I propose that with inverse functions you also inverse the slope. (delta x over delta y)
Oh and yes,
I propose you graph it differently as well. The Y axis will be horizontal, and the X axis will be vertical. And you read it from the (vertical X) axis, and across the horizontal Y axis to figure out the answers.
In this way the inverse slope would hold.
In essence, we are treating the inverse function as a function in and of itself.
But, we are keeping the integral idea of X and then Y. The Y remains as a Y and we actually change the format of reading it in this instance.
I know this may be hard to grasp as a bunch of words, but I’ll post pictures or a youtube video later :D
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Ahh yes, my love life.
Well, the girl I am affectionate for is already taken.
And I seem to have quite a few younger girls who are attracted to me, all of whom I treat kindly and am nice to, but all of whom I do not particularly find myself attracted to.
However, I am attracted to the personality of the person that I like.
While I like fitness and am attracted to those with the same ideals, I have liked girls who are not, well, sexy before.
Sex is merely a reproductive conduit, it does not constitute love in any manner. It is conducive of lust, however, and can spawn relationships that are feigned and based on the mans sexual desire and raging hormones.
And in such a case the man would not care for the girl as deeply as in a case where the man’s motivation was true love.
An affinity between the two’s souls.
Men can be evil, and likewise so can women, but the truth is you have to be weary of the motivation behind everything.
Are they doing what they do because they love you?
Or just to get brownie points?
For instance, in popular media and in some songs the fictional characters or in the songs the actual people say that they love the person, and the next thing you know they are talking about having intercourse with them.
!! Wait, what just happened there?
They claim love at first sight, and then they want to go straight for sex?
No, no, no! That is not love!
That is lustful desire!
You shouldn’t have sex with anyone you barely know, and you definitely shouldn’t have sex with someone who probably just wants to mate and leave you afterwords. They don’t want a serious relationship and most likely just want to mate with as many foxy mamas as the can.
Of course, there is an exception to every rule, but you can never go wrong in protecting yourself and your emotions.
People in this world often are selfish, and some who are smarter know how to play it to make themselves look and seem authentic, but once they get through your defenses their true intentions show.
The best course of action is to extend the amount of time before you decide if you trust them enough, go on many many dates in public areas that are crowded, and always bring a friend. Make it a double date.
The longer it takes the less likely it is he will be putting on an act, although it is possible his stake may actually increase if he’s desperate or determined, and the more you will get to know him.
If you want a serious relationship, and want to get married one day and have children, let him know that you are looking for a serious relationship and are remaining chaste until you get married.
Now, if he was planning on swooning you and getting you easy, he may reconsider this and if he is truly not interested in marriage or a serious relationship, if he just wants to play around and mate with you, then he may back off and go his separate way.
But if he is serious, then you two can continue dating for a while, so you can try to see what happens when his emotions are inflamed, and you should meet his parents. Make sure to learn as much about him as you can and to see if he is compatible with your idealistic view of a man.
And after a while, if he is serious, he may or may not propose.
Whether or not he makes enough money to support you and a family or if he is working to get a degree to earn enough to support a family, that is up to you to factor into your considerations.
Also, the longer you wait to have children the older your eggs get and the higher the likelihood of your children having problems like down-syndrome.
If he claims to want to marry you, but cannot back that  claim or is gun-shy, you need to decide if he truly is the man for you.
You need to talk to him, ask him about what he  thinks about it, and explain your point of view and tell him that you want a real relationship and that you cannot wait forever. (you might want to explain the whole down-syndrome likelihood thing to him too)

Either way, if the man your dating does not live up to your expectations you may need to consider reevaluating and considering other options for a spouse.
Good luck in your endeavors!
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Well, I feel like I have posted a lot for one day :D
I haven’t really touched up on my own life that much, but that is okay. :}
I am more interested in your  guy’s lives anyway. :)
Thank you for reading!

Love,

~Logan D. Haser